So, it’s been a couple of days now “back on track”. It is SO hard getting back into things. It seems like all I think about all day is food… that’s not normal! I don’t know what it is, it’s like I’m afraid it’s all going to be gone or something… ha-ha, that makes me sound a little crazy! I know it’s there, it’s not going anywhere, and I’m definitely not going to starve…. I just want to sit and eat all day, and I don’t like that.
I have a bar of dark chocolate that I keep in my freezer. I break it up into squares and I eat 2 or 3 of those squares after dinner to take care of my sweet tooth. I have a HUGE sweet tooth. If I had things my way, all I would ever eat would be chocolate, cakes, cookies… anything that has a lot of sugar. Anyway, I’ve been trying stay away from it these past few days, trying to wean myself slowly off of sugar, which I really need to do. But every time I go into the freezer to get something, usually something to cook for dinner…. I swear that thing is staring at me, taunting me. I should just throw it away so I don’t even see it, but I can’t bring myself to do it… Oh chocolate… if only we could get along!
School will be starting up again for me next week and it has me very nervous! I’m so afraid of failing that it’s got me freaking out a little bit. I know I’ll be stressed, and when I get stressed, I eat. That’s how I fell of track this past time. I didn’t even realize that I was eating, until half the package of whatever I was eating was gone. Then I would feel terrible and guilty, and that doesn’t feel good at all. I’m going to really focus on myself this time around and make sure that don’t eat if I’m not hungry. Maybe I should buy a bunch of sugar free gum and just chew that, it might help.
We are already 10 days in to the new year... crazy! I hope this new year is starting off great for everyone! We all make so many resolutions this time of year, I just hope I can stick to mine, and that all of you can do the same! I have really got to make it work, I just can’t stay this way anymore. I hope this blog finds all of you doing well and felling motivated to make it work for yourselves too!
♥ Lots of LOVE ♥