Wednesday, 11 January 2012

That Chocolate is Staring at Me!!

So, it’s been a couple of days now “back on track”. It is SO hard getting back into things. It seems like all I think about all day is food… that’s not normal! I don’t know what it is, it’s like I’m afraid it’s all going to be gone or something… ha-ha, that makes me sound a little crazy! I know it’s there, it’s not going anywhere, and I’m definitely not going to starve…. I just want to sit and eat all day, and I don’t like that. 

 I have a bar of dark chocolate that I keep in my freezer. I break it up into squares and I eat 2 or 3 of those squares after dinner to take care of my sweet tooth. I have a HUGE sweet tooth. If I had things my way, all I would ever eat would be chocolate, cakes, cookies… anything that has a lot of sugar. Anyway,  I’ve been trying stay away from it these past few days, trying to wean myself slowly off of sugar, which I really need to do. But every time I go into the freezer to get something, usually something to cook for dinner…. I swear that thing is staring at me, taunting me. I should just throw it away so I don’t even see it, but I can’t bring myself to do it… Oh chocolate… if only we could get along! 

School will be starting up again for me next week and it has me very nervous! I’m so afraid of failing that it’s got me freaking out a little bit. I know I’ll be stressed, and when I get stressed, I eat. That’s how I fell of track this past time. I didn’t even realize that I was eating, until half the package of whatever I was eating was gone. Then I would feel terrible and guilty, and that doesn’t feel good at all. I’m going to really focus on myself this time around and make sure that don’t eat if I’m not hungry. Maybe I should buy a bunch of sugar free gum and just chew that, it might help.

We are already 10 days in to the new year... crazy! I hope this new year is starting off great for everyone! We all make so many resolutions this time of year, I just hope I can stick to mine, and that all of you can do the same! I have really got to make it work, I just can’t stay this way anymore. I hope this blog finds all of you doing well and felling motivated to make it work for yourselves too!

♥ Lots of LOVE ♥



  1. There's a really interesting book out there called The End of Overeating that has some compelling evidence about how addictive fat, salt and sugar is and how the food industry uses that knowledge to put us in a hammerlock.

    I think many of us have been in that place where food seems to be on your mind 24/7. My experience has been that while that feeling may never completely go away, it does get better when you clean up your diet and exercise regularly.

    Best of luck to you!

  2. Thanks Jack! I've really been trying to stay away from the junk, but I'm hoping it gets easier soon! I'll have to look into that book and see what it's all about, thanks for the tip! :)

  3. are we twins?! i could totally live on nothing but sweets too. over the holiday season i ready for this....NINE pounds! WHAT?! haha and because i controlled nothing that went in my mouth. there were times i'd just be sitting in front of the tv eating one piece of candy after another...and then i'd feel like CRAP just like you. when i'm not "on track" i just eat to eat. and i get so jealous any time my boyfriend eats something that i usually eat something with him too...just because i'm jealous and not because i'm hungry at all. it's really horrible. so far so good this year. down 3lbs! it's not a lot but it's something :)

  4. I feel your pain on the weight gain Taryn, I think I gained at least 7 or 8 pounds. It really sucks! A 3 pound loss is great! I'm just now getting back into my workout schedule, so I haven't seen any loss yet, but I'm sure I'll lose a few pretty quick just because of water weight... I definitely had too much salt these last few weeks!

  5. I have a huge sweet tooth too! I totally agree with Jack about The End of Overeating. It's a terribly scientific book and hard to get through at times but it makes me think about cravings differently - How your brain and food industry are constantly playing tricks on you. Don't deny yourself anything. Just have a heck of a lot less of it.

  6. Thanks Tina! I'm trying not to deny myself things, because I know I'll go crazy and binge. I'm just trying to take it one day at a time. I will definitely have to check out that book!

  7. Hi Laura! Nice to meet you! I came over from Taryn's place!
    Chocolate does stare! I swear it does! I can relate!
    Good luck on your journey! I'm starting one too, but haven't really written about mine yet. It does include lots of salad and fruits and a big juicer. We shall see!

  8. Thanks for stopping by Amylou! Good luck on your journey as well!